Heartbeat.

I fell asleep with my headphones wrapped around my skull like a metroid, pumping 90’s trance past my stapes and through my ear canal. The synths soothed at first, taking me into a deeper place, thoughts, memories, regrets, worries, stress. All these themes were kicked up in the flurry of the beat and strewn all throughout my vehicle. I fade in and out of consciousness, with each waking moment experiencing a new pain, first a twitch in my legs, then a clutch on my chest followed by an ache in my spine. 30 minutes in this state and I awake to a text. “Who is this?”

I don’t know how to answer that simple little question. How are we supposed to answer such an important question in 144 characters or less?

This is a boy, raised in a middle class home with a single mother. I grew up Catholic but even at the vulnerable age when I was being taken to be brainwashed I was still a skeptic. I was a vampire for pleasure, I needed to fill my holes with visual stimulation or adrenaline inducing activities. Like any boy, I wanted what I couldn’t have, yet once I reached my dreams I was left unsatisfied. Always striving for something better I grew older, but I dont feel Ive matured much. I feel very childish in my questions and emotions. Im easy to displease and moody. On the other face of the same coin, I am very easily entertained. Id rather enjoy simple things, mostly because I dont have an attention span capable of driving me deeper into thoughts as much as I would like. I want to change everything about myself.

Image; I feel like I am lying to the world by putting on this costume to fit into the “real world.”

Motivation; I am the laziest workaholic Ive ever met. I need to constantly be doing something productive, whilst putting the least amount of effort in whatever it is.

Aspirations; I grew up basing all success on a failing system. I wanted to grow old with a pile of cash and a mansion with 14 pools and a Japanese maid. Now Id be happy with a photostudio, box of pencils, racecar, cat and a fleshlight.

I wish I could answer who I am in a more realistic way, but for now.

Im Taylor, we met at an MSI concert.

TL;DR Im a whiny bitch who needs to get his shit together.